So, a lot has changed in the last few months. I'm not in the navy. I'm not going to New Jersey. I met a boy and I am staying in Michigan with him.
It is currently three thirty in the morning and I am sitting out on the balcony of a marriott hotel in Troy Michigan. I am down here today for my physical at MEPS because I am joining the navy. Yes me of all people. Joining the navy. Bet nobody saw that one coming. I have to be awake in 23 minutes to start getting ready for my physical. earlier in the night or i guess yesterday night now seeing as how its far past midnight I took my ASVAB and got a 84 out of 99. That's not the best the worlds ever seen but its pretty damn good, Second highest out of the group of us that are staying at the hotel tonight. the highest was a 94 but that guy was a genius. A legitimate genius. I'm just somewhat intelligent. Back to my point though, I'm sitting on the balcony drinking a chai tea late Checking how many people have been viewing my page and chain smoking Camel Crush Bold's (I don't even regularly smoke I am just that anxious I need anything to keep me calm. I may or may not get in tomorrow. If not I am buying an ounce of weed. Yes, an entire fucking ounce.). Wile checking how many people were looking at my page I was pleasantly surprised as to how many people have been viewing it lately. Yesterday alone I had almost 200 views to my page even though I haven't updated a thing in months. I'm not sure why people view my page and even more so I'm not sure why nobody ever contacts me or comments on any of my blog posts. It would seem if I have THAT MANY page views I would get comments. right? so I guess this is just a challenge to anybody who actually ready what i right. even if it is months after i make this post that you read it comment on it. Send me an email. Add me on facebook and tell me that you have been here. Tell me what you think about my new life decisions. Because it is a new life decision and I'm scared as hell. So please.
I have been posting things on here for OVER a year now and i have never dated anything. i don't keep things in any particular order or anything. I just dump things and i think its time for me to change that. I will still probably not have very much order and most of my posts will probably be just as mixed up as before but now i at least intend to put dates on them :) Put some sort of time line in my mess. What do you guys think? Do you think i should track my dates or just keep dropping stuff in here when i get online? i have noticed a certain influx of vies lately so i thought i would take a pole. what do you think? please leave any thoughts, tips, or concerns. :) thank you for your time, i hope you enjoy reading and looking at my posts.
The point of my blog is.... unknown.
The point of my blog is.... potentially not even there
The point of my blog is..... absolutely nonexistent
Yet for some reason, YOU are sitting there reading it.
And why you are sitting there reading it.... I have no clue.
I would never read a blog as pointless as this one,
Yet, here I am, writing one, and letting you read it.
How hypocritical of me?
But I am still not the one sitting there reading this pointless thing.
Do you have NO self control?
Are you really THIS pathetic?
I don’t yet have a clue ware I am going with this. I don’t yet have a clue what I am trying to say here. All I no right now is that I have something deep with in screaming to get out. Screaming for the world to here it. What that is I don’t yet no. I don’t have the slightest clue. But just bare with me and I will try to find out.
Okay, so it’s Halloween. I'm with my best friend and we have been invited to a party. Bad ass right?
Or not. Her mother says no. We are not allowed to go because we didn't ask in advance enough.
Funny thing, we asked yesterday, we asked this morning, we asked this afternoon, we asked several hours ago. She never answered.
Now we forced an answer and she says no, because we didn't ask in advance...
Fair? I think not.
Am I pissed? I think so.
What do you think of this situation?
Oh my god, I can't stand having to wake up for school in the morning. My alarm goes off and i just lie here. waiting for the inspiration to move. My alarms still sounding in that dreadful tone..... over and over again.... beep beep beep. and its sitting all the way across the room. I begin to think to myself, can I just go back to sleep with it sounding? Do I really have to get up to turn it off? Soon enough it begins to get louder, more annoying, and something in me makes me go tend to it. I stand up and I feel the ground below me so well, a feeling that I hate. I stumble my way over and finally get it to turn off. I decide that I had better go to school today because I cant afford to fail right now, so I turn my light on and begin to search for clothing. I wish I could just go back to bed, back to sleep, but I can't now. I'm up. I have to go to school. I have to try to pass. I go into the bathroom and look in the mirror. My hairs all over the place. My makeup is smeared. I look like hell. I slowly begin to wash the remainders of yesterdays makeup off and begin applying more, i cover up the dark circles below my eyes, brush my hair. Trying to make myself look presentable. Or at least a little bit.
Once I’m dressed and decorated I’m still not ready to run of to school, I’m still not ready to face the world. Then again I never really am. I sit on my bed, and I sip some tea. I open my laptop and begin to find out what’s been going on in the world. I spend as much time as I can doing that but soon enough I look up at the clock. Its 7 06 - 7 08. I don’t have much time left, bus comes in 4 minutes and I have to run out the door. I close my laptop and off I go. Still not ready to face the world.
Hello world, I am magic, and this is my blog.
I am a young girl, only 16 years old.
The story that is my life is just beginning and i wish to make you part of it.
I wish to take you on this magical journey with me.
I have never before been part of a blog website so this is all new to me.
The inspiration behind me creating this came from many places.
But for the most part it came from with in.
A voice inside of me is screaming to get out.
Screaming to be heard.
By anyone who is willing to listen.
Or in this case read.
There are many words that can describe me, not all of them good and not all of them bad.
Boring is not one of those words.
I always have SOMETHING going on in my life.
Good bad or indifferent.
Theres always something keeping things interesting.
And from this point i would like to include you.
Welcome to my world.
And welcome to my blog.
Thank you for reading this and i hope you read my future postings as well.
Sincerely, The Magic In Misery.